So was this self-cest?

I don't really understand where "sense of pride" came from, as Jisho lists "むなしく" as "in vain; to no purpose; fruitlessly". It also says "むなしくなる" is "to die; to expire", but I don't think that's the case here :3

so once she finishes, she immediately has the urge to do it again/still horny?

I'd guess she can't satisfy herself and needs a partner.
Or she sees sex as meaningless itself, but that sounds too depressive.

Hat_Vangart said:

I'd guess she can't satisfy herself and needs a partner.
Or she sees sex as meaningless itself, but that sounds too depressive.

I'd say more that she feels that "playing alone" may satisfy her body, but not her spirit.

Mithiwithi said:

I'd say more that she feels that "playing alone" may satisfy her body, but not her spirit.

Guys, it's just that empty feeling you get after masturbation. Do guys really never felt that?

Mithiwithi said:

I'd say more that she feels that "playing alone" may satisfy her body, but not her spirit.

Vadosity said:

Guys, it's just that empty feeling you get after masturbation. Do guys really never felt that?

going from post #1807942, it sounds like both of you are right.

Vadosity said:
Do guys really never felt that?

When you're a lonely 20-something-year-old virgin, your masturbation sessions tend to result in a period of depression.
So, as a guy, yeah we can get that too.