Maaaaaan, this page is super relatable.
Like, I experienced real loneliness for the first time about a year and a half ago. I was up late, and felt like absolute garbage. I didn't even realize that what I was feeling was loneliness at first- it didn't feel like I wanted people around, I just felt incapable of being happy for some reason. And, like, I also felt kinda hopeless, because nothing seemed like it would cheer me up. I was actually worried that I was experiencing symptoms of depression
Then, I started playing video games that I loved as a kid, and I ended up doing that all night, constantly wondering why the wonders of nostalgia and good video games weren't making me feel better.
Then my family started to wake up and start their day, and that's when it clicked that I was lonely, because my family just being up made me instantly feel significantly better.

(Hmm okay since the above page is of someone actualy sociable i supose, and i am basicaly the opposte ... and my inmage may still be too good)

Maaaaaaan, this page is super unrelateable.
Like, I Experience this day in and day out since about half a year ago. I am always up late and feel like a Potato. And like i always feel hopeless when around people this may actualy be symptoms of a Social Anxiety. I am always playing videogames i liked as a kid and ones i once didn't. Not even wondering why the wonders of why am i even doing this?! Then my family doesn't wake me up and it all starts over again on another day. And thats when it clicked:

I am an absolute NEET perfect Home Security Guard.

(Yes i am making fun of myself, yes i am aware this isnt actualy a good thing, no i sadly cant change it =( )

Dragonofsheep said:

(Hmm okay since the above page is of someone actualy sociable i supose, and i am basicaly the opposte ... and my inmage may still be too good)

Maaaaaaan, this page is super unrelateable.
Like, I Experience this day in and day out since about half a year ago. I am always up late and feel like a Potato. And like i always feel hopeless when around people this may actualy be symptoms of a Social Anxiety. I am always playing videogames i liked as a kid and ones i once didn't. Not even wondering why the wonders of why am i even doing this?! Then my family doesn't wake me up and it all starts over again on another day. And thats when it clicked:

I am an absolute NEET perfect Home Security Guard.

(Yes i am making fun of myself, yes i am aware this isnt actualy a good thing, no i sadly cant change it =( )

I'm an anti-social recluse of a human being myself and I've been doing much of the same thing with my life for the last few years, so I know how it feels to be a NEET Home Security Guard too, especially with that despairing feeling of "I can't change myself" hanging above it all. I can't say I understand your exact situation, but I sincerely hope things take a turn for the better for you.