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Obey Me! LOG (2020~2025)
A compilation of all my Obey Me drawings, most of them I have never posted before. Sorry for the different signatures on some drawings, I changed username several times over the years, but you can find my current Twitter account on my profile ദ്ദി ˉ͈̀꒳ˉ͈́ )✧
This was such a beautiful stage of my life, yet dark as well, and Obey Me was with me all the way, especially Mammon.
I wish I could have defeated laziness and drawn more. I regret being such a perfectionist and so intent on pursuing an artstyle instead of enjoying drawing and characters. "I must have an artstyle that others find pretty. I can't draw ugly, there is a quality I must maintain. Every drawing must be clean, perfect, or else I won't post it. Pretty drawings are so hard, but there's no other way...", that was my silly mentality, a perfect recipe for never finishing anything. I feel like I missed so much because of this: I didn't make friends in the OM community, I didn't share my OCs, and above all, I didn't give life to all those fun ideas I had in my head, and which today are gone...
Those years will never return, as the passion I had for OM and Mammon died out long ago. Now the OM games are discontinued, and most of the fandom abandoned it. Though the problem is not that something beautiful is over, after all everything has an end. The problem is how I acted. Now who will get the regret out of my chest for not enjoying every moment of it? I'm the only one to blame.
Having been in this fandom left me with a valuable lesson that I will not miss. I will not leave things for later again, as everything comes to an end. I will be a better artist, not by making perfect drawings, but by making drawings from the heart.
I love you Mammon. I love you Obey Me. Thank you for everything.

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