Note the change midway through the sentence.

(In the original she cuts off at the first 'syllable' of "accept(able)", then rewords her sentence.)

She may be about to say "うれしい" (glad) rather than "うけいれる" (accept).

It feels like Milady is heavily burdened by the fact she can't be herself but instead needs to strive to be someone else not around anymore. It's an impossible goal anyway, but if her electric brain is telling her she must do it, yet knows she can't really do it, it's not a fun way of living.

Don't give up! Love conquerors all!