it's rather appropriate, actually. It happens sometimes. To know you're close to being well, only to relapse and ruin it all.
It's difficult to describe what it feels like to be in this position. Some people are scared, some cry, some do it with fierce determination. I just felt nothing. I don't really remember how long I stared down that bore. But I can't ever for get that image. Not sure why I stopped that day. Not sure if I'm happy I did.